proof...

(i know i graduated in December...but here is some proof.)

(me and the Mother of Mothers - Old Main.)


Pure as the dawn on the brow of thy beauty
Watches thy soul from the mountains of God
Over the fates of thy children departed
Far from the land where their footsteps have trod
Beacon of hope in the ways dreary lighted
Pride of our hearts that are loyal and true
From those who adore unto one who adores us
Mother of Mothers, we siiiing untoo yooouuuuuuuu!

(my "yep, i did it" look i gave to my brother...letting him know he can too.)

goodnight lovelies.

so that's that.

one thing i've learned since graduation: i really didn't (and don't) know myself as well as i thought i did. by this i don't at all mean that i wasn't myself before. i am just more myself now. and i am realizing that life really is a journey. i've heard it a thousand times before. but now i've learned it for myself.

today i brought upon myself stress and discouragement thinking about these things, my life, my passions, my future. i just started dwelling on the unhappiness i've found in my current job. then overwhelmed myself trying to come up with new solutions to my next job problem. what should i try to do? where should i try to do this? UGH!

i am still figuring myself out. i'm still learning what i am passionate about, what matters to me in life, and that God's plan is always good and always perfect...when i cannot see even a glimpse, it is there and it is perfect. i am choosing to truly believe that.

then, i think about all the ways i am so blessed in life. for instence: my dear family and my amazing female friends i have right now! they're so great. such a blessing, also, the fact that at least i have a job...i am blessed in countless ways. i should definately realize this daily and be thankful for them rather than dwelling on the only negative thing going on in my life. especially since i do know that God knows what He's doing...therefore, i should praise him that i don't! this way hopefully i'll always try to walk with him so that i may be receptive to the Spirit's leading...hopefully.

so that's that. for now, at least.